Some times you just need to have a litttle more faith

This morning is an interesting one, Matt is very set on finding difficulty with everything and wanting to stay in his head, which has never been a good thing, being in our head is never a good thing and for Matt it is so much more so.

No good comes from being in his head ever and always he talks himself into a very bad mood.

So it starts off like this I cant figure out how to do this, I help he still gets up set and now moves on to some other thing he has decided to focus on and again i help him out and it becomes something else.

I used to get upset with these situations, now I leave the situation with him and help him through other means like putting on an audio book of some one who inspires me to help him calm down.

It doesnt always work but it is worth a try and I get the benefit of hear something I like, and that is always a good thing.

“All I want is to be free” Matt says to me.

Ah freedom it means so many things to so many different people, being free to have as much money as you could imagine to do what ever you want, being free to start you own business and no longer work for anyone else, being free to have the relationship you want and with whom you want, being free to drink fresh water, being free to have a home of your own, being free to choose the job you want, being free to go to the school you want, being free to feed you family and yourself, being free to be yourself.

So many different types of freedoms and my son Matt see's being free as having a computer that works yes freedom to have a working computer.

We never know what others are thinking at any time or the life they are living we do not know there challenges or the difficulties they are having. We are all on our own path no one is on the same one.

I am a big believe that I am here to care for these guys, my best place is here taking care of Matt and his little brother Loki, I am a full time mom looking for the best way to help Matt live his life. I remind Matt to have faith although the computer is not working at this moment it will be some how you will have a working computer, have faith.

There are so many times during the day I remind myself to have faith, to breath and remember that this is the amazing life I am asked for, if Matt has a difficult day like this morning I just remind myself that all is good and he is entitle to have his mood, but I dont have to be part of it and I can walk away and have faith that he himself will work through it and although he would love nothing more then to bring me in to his moment I stay focused on where and who I want to be and I have faith that all things will work out.

Life with Matt is a wonderful place to be even with all the excitement in the morning.

Dont judge, love and have faith that all will be exactly as it should be.