Oh boy one of those mornings
One of those morning, I woke up too early, Matt woke up to early as well looks like he had a rough night.
As I get ready for my morning, making coffee and tiding up Matt sneaks up behind me, shaking pale and sweaty yup a seizure a Automatisms, sweaty, shacky and so very pale.
I help him to lay down it only lasts a moment but still so scary.
I realize this wasnt his first looks like he had a grandmal during the night or early morning.
As I began writing this and Matt had just finished his breakfast he had an absent seizure here is the youtube link of him coming out if it. Youtube video
Not ever morning is the same infact some are very scary and stressful like today and there are many moments I just want to cry, cry that Matt is having a rough day with so many seizure, cry because I cant figure out why, cry because I am scared.
Then I hear Matt say to me after I ask him how is doing " good, really good, seems I am being lifted up to be more happy." And I smile at him as he gives me his awesome smile.
I shut off his light and he lays back down in bed a nap sounds good.
Its one if those mornings, things have to be ajusted no walk inbyhe forest just a walk around the block, its short but I have to be here for Matt to care for him.
Its one of those days and I have to be patent, calm and observent, hopefully this afternoon will be better.
Dont give up, just learn to go with the flow.
Joan
Looking forward to an afternoon with Matt having fun outside with me like yesterday.