I have never thought of me as a hero

I have never thought of me as a hero just doing what I thought I needed to do to help my son, I can see so many hero's you would think I would know by now what one looked like but I only saw me as doing what I needed to, to give my son a really good life to help him live another day. I would brag about what my husband has done as I think he has gone above and beyond doing everything he can to help care for our son a son he choose to have who was already ill with this illness and who ever step of the way stuck by him loving him and helping him. I would see other parents, sister, family members caring for others who were ill and think wow they are true hero's.

But not once have I chosen to see myself as a hero, for I was a mother and this is what a mother does, they care for their child, they love their child and they do everything they can to help their child.

Not every mother does this I know some are not able to, I understand this, but not once did I ever see myself as a Hero.

Today I am 50 years young and I realize I have been some bodies hero I have 4 children and a grand child who believe I am more then I ever thought I was, I have spend almost all of my life giving to these amazing beings, I have spent sleepless nights in the hospital or in the house watching and caring for them, I have spend time caring for, cleaning up after, feeding, giving medicine, going to specialists, learning how to care for, treating, healing, and counselling. I have given hope when things seem to be so very bleak, I have hug, comforted and loved unconditionally, I have carved new ways found new medication and tried new therapy.

And still I never seem to see me as a hero, I gave up vacations, dates, trips away, I quite jobs, canceled visits and rearranged meetings because I was needed by my child, I gave up on parts of my life that didnt fit with what was needed because always my kids are first.

Even though I have a child with an illness like Epilepsy and everyday I care for him I still never saw me as a hero instead I saw him as my hero, he wakes up ever morning to go through another day trying not to worry or go a stray, hoping that today will be a good to maybe not have a issue, a angry moment, a dizzy spell or a head ache or even worse to hopefully not to have a seizure and have to begin all over again.

I have never thought of me as a hero I am just doing my best to give my guy the best life YET, but you know what maybe I am.