I guess you dont want me any more
I guess you dont want me any more
Sometimes you never know what you are going to hear from Matt, sometimes you never know where he gets these thoughts from, sometimes you wonder okay what have I done this time.
I guess you dont want me any more.
I should be used to the blurting out of things he says, I know he doesnt mean it and I know that he is just reacting probably for a reaction or some attention not good attention, how ever these days I just let it go and if he is angry I just send him to his room as no one deserves someone else anger.
No return anger, no return frustration just a reminder of course he is wanted and I do a whole for him, for him to think other wise.
Yes some times words hurt but if you let go of what is being said and focus on why it could be said this might help you understand a little more of what it going on for me I know Matt is having a difficult time at this moment in time, he is wanting more and more to be independent to find a love and live a life and for him it is taking to long, he says there is to much technolagy in his head unsure what that means but I know he is feeling out of sorts and having a difficult time being happy, sometimes it isnt as easy to just be happy when you have done nothing but talk yourself out of it.
I guess you dont want me any more. This is one of the mild things he has said to me and of course he knows that is not true I love him with all my heart and will have him with me as long as I can, I will always help him be more healthy and hopefully one day he will have the life he truly wants for now I am here for him.
Words hurt but only if you allow them to move on and decide on if it is worth it.
<3 Joan Nielsen
