Sometimes the hardest part is choosing at least for me
Sometimes the hardest part is choosing at least for me
I usually dont ever have to Make the decisions between going and not going, doing or not doing, or even as simple as between which child I need to be with, lucky for my I have an awesome husband that steps up and really helps out in so many ways.
This Halloween one of our funnest holidays Matt became unwell he has had some really not so good day he has had some bad seizures and some really bad falls and now is suffering with the after affects of a really bad head ache so he is home not really doing anything but resting while Mike and Clarissa take the little ones out trick or treating. This for me is a difficult spot although I know that I need to be here with Matt as he needs me, I miss being there for Loki. I know Loki is fine with it and that it is just a fun time out for him, but for me I make it hard on myself, I know what I need to do to be here with Matt to help him, I know this but sometimes I feel guilty for no being able to go out with Loki and Jaden and do something like this.
Sometimes it is hard to choose to stay home especially when it is times like this, but I know it is not fair to Matt to take him anywhere when he himself is not feeling good.
What would you do?
I remember when Matt was younger and only a few years with Seizures and medication and still my happy go lucky guy having fun with Halloween but not today, today he is in pain and resting. I know I made the right decision to stay home and care for Matt but I think some times the hardest person on us is ourselves and I think this is one of the things I am the hardest on me there just never ever seems like enough of me. So for today I need to just become okay with that and give myself a pat on the back I am doing the best I can.
Always know you are doing the best you can with what you have.
<3 Joan Nielsen
