How much does he understand?

I was trying to understand why Matt was doing something, what is his thoughts about it, how come it is important for him to do it. As I was asking him in a sorts of ways he was coming back to other things like I am just trying to be calm, I just want to be a part of your life, I love you., okay, okay I wont do that any more, you dont want me to do that.

I explained he to him I was just wondering why but I am not sure he understood the question over and over I asked him in all sorts of different ways but he just didnt seem to get it.

There are days like this and I am really not sure how much of what I say he understand and I always try to change the wording so that maybe he will understand in some way but today he just didnt seem to understand and usually at that point I can see the trying to have him understand is doing more damage then good.

Its okay Matt all is good, everything is good, your doing just fine and I love you. I say as I end the conversation. A little while later I hear him say something not sure what so I go back and ask him and he says its me doing this to you. I say no nothing is happening everything is good, you are not in trouble, you are not bad, you are good, you are okay and everything is wonderful all is good Matt and I love you. I help him with some affirmations like I am okay, I am good, I am doing my best, I am loved, I am awesome.

And then he starts to do his puzzles and the moment has ended.

I dont know how much he understands but I will always try to understand him more and more but more then that I will always let him know he is good, he is okay, he is amazing, that everything is wonderful and working out for us and that is so very much loved.

<3 Joan Nielsen