Shopping
I want to go shopping but I know you don't have any money. Matt says to me.
I have money Matt I tell him
You have money? Oh well can we go shopping? he asks
What is it you want Matt, I ask already knowing what he would like
Well I would like some chips Doritos, Lays and Tortillas. He shares with me
It is the same thing he has been wanting for weeks and has received many, many times in the past few weeks.
Bags of chips three bags a week I am not sure why he has begone this to ask for chips every week of course this is above all the treats he gets like popcorn, veggie and fruit snacks and of course all the Easter stuff he has gotten.
I don't want to deny him or limit him but at the same time I wonder is all these chips really good for him?
It sometimes makes it difficult for me to even know what to say or do.
I am not going to go shopping today Matt but I am sure you will get some chips at some point. I tell him
This time that is a good answer but I have had times where he has planned a shopping day with out telling me and waited around all day asking where I was going or when I was going waking up and getting all ready and following me around waiting for us to go somewhere and me not having a clue.
Yes there are some days that he gets more and more angry because what he thought was a plan was all in his head.
But this day was a good day and he heard what I was saying at some point.
Shopping for food is an important part of Matts life he needs to know we have a lot of it and will spend so much time worrying about when we will go and get more. Worrying of course is one of the things we could all do with out and especially for Matt.
So for now all I can do is remind him he does not have to worry about it and it will happen some day soon.
Is there ever a time he has to worry about food? No we have always had food in our home he has always had three meals a day and snakes so I am not sure where this all came from but I know there is nothing I can do about his thoughts and all I can do is become okay with who he chooses to be and just reassure him that it is all okay.
<3 Joan Nielsen
