Reset
Sometimes when Matt has some really difficult days like he has had on Dec 31st and Jan 1st his brain need to reset or that is how it seems. He ends up having a seizure and then it resets him mood and thoughts and he isn't so panicked.
If you have been with us for awhile you know that Matt needs structure of some kind, he needs his meals at the same time, he needs to know someone is here to help him and he needs to be able to either watch fun movies read a good book or play video games. There are times though no matter what we do that he just gets into a mood where to much imagination is not good for him and he begin believing in things and well becoming very, very scared this is how it was for the past few days and then he had a seizure early Tuesday morning Jan 2nd and when he woke up he was back to calm Matt, back to speaking of his routine "its almost 12" he would say meaning its getting close to my lunch.
So did the seizure reset his brain? This is something Mike and I have talked about for awhile because it always seems to happen like this he gets to the point where he is just not himself so very scared of everything, everything he says is like he is yelling, and so very over imaginative in a negative way. There is nothing he can do to think of all the good its just all negative. Sleep doesn't help, bathing doesn't help, sun lamp doesn't help, funny movies don't help. He just is very upset and confused.
And then just like that he wakes up after the grand mal seizure and he let go of all the negative, he is still a little groggy but he isn't angry, scared or depressed any more.
So does the grand mal seizure rest his brain? is this a part of the whole thing? Would he even get like this if he didn't have seizures? Is all of this connected in some way? We will never know but it is interesting to think about. Does the body know what it needs? Hmmm Matt is in a better mood and healing up and that is the best part he may be groggy and confused in a good way and that is okay in fact all of it is okay it is all just very different.
