After Christmas seizure

Christmas is over its boxing day Matt is starting to figure out how to entertain himself with out getting upset, trying to find a happy spot.

Although still over focused and not so happy, staying in his room watching movies or playing games but no out burst or long discussions of poor me.

It was a okay day compaired to the few before.

Then as I am laying down for the night I hear it, Loki asks "what is that?" I say "Thats Matt having a seizure." 

We both get up to check on him.

In his room we talk him back to us, while he is having a grand mal seizure. Matt your okay, come back to us. Its okay Matt we are here with you, come on back to us. Usually something like this.

Poor guy why does he have to go through this? I think to myself while answering Lokis questions.

A seizure is never any fun and seems to happen more in fall and winter. 

Even with all we do we cant seem to get 100% seizure free but every day we try.

Seizures are scary even after seeingvso many, this one lasted a little longer then the last.

"What do you think he is looking at?" Loki asks me. "I have no idea what he see's but his are just open becauae of the reaction to the seizure, he was sleeping so wasnt seeing anything." I answer him.

With a grand mal seizure his eyes open and he isnt even aware of it, he isnt aware of anything he does and thank goodness to have your body shacking all over the place is crazy enough with out you having to be aware of it.

"His face is blue." Loki says to me. "Yes because he isnt breathing." I answer.

With a grand mal seizure he stops breathing for as long as he is seizing.

Some times, some days, some moments these things happen, its scar, its something we feel never prepared for but always know what to do. 

You never know when one is coming and the only time you really know that things are okay will be the next morning when Matt wakes up.

In our home seizures are a part of life for now but none of is know what the future holds. 

Joan ❤