If you loved you half as much as I love you

The things we do to ourselves with out even thinking or maybe we think but we do it anyway.

The last blog I spoke of right and wrong and how we need to take responsibility for what we choose to do and who we choose to be. Matt had an interesting reaction to this I will go into more on a different blog post as I think this one needs to get out there more at this moment.

For those that are unaware I will clear a few things up first Matt is not allowed some different foods due the fact that it creates seizures. I know that many dont understand this and dont realize the important of eating the right food and yes we have had to deal with a lot of non believers but they dont have to deal with the after effects of what this food does and for Matt we have found that high carb and gluten foods are not good and due create seizures and a bad reaction after words.

Matt had snuck some food he was not allowed to have and ate them and then told me about it after words.

I am not sure how he explains it to himself maybe because he does not get to experience the after affects, maybe it is like an addiction to food, I do not know but I do know he has an obsession for food and it over takes him enough to know when it is close to breakfast, lunch and dinner and lets not for get snacks.

As he was working on his story about who, why and what that reason he did it, I turned around to him and said "I wished you loved you as much as I love you."

Isnt that it actually we so much love someone else more then ourself well in our own silly way, because I believe we really cant love untill we love ourselves, but in our own little way we would rather give more to someone else then ourselves.

Way dont we realize what we are doing to ourselves?

Why dont we see how lovable we truly are.

For Matt he has a difficult time loving himself, he always puts himself down, he doesnt like looking at anyone including himself in a mirror.

Many of us including myself before I did my self love work have this issue but if we just spent some time being with ourselves and learning to be okay with who we are in this moment, what we have done forgive ourselves and move on forward to where and who we want to be.

Why do we hold so much more on ourselves yet we allow others to be who they are?

Learn to love you, forgive your self, you are worth it.