Happy Birthday to Matt

lifewithmatt
Nov 24, 2015
3 min read

If you had told me 27 years ago as I was getting ready to have this amazing person that things would have been the way they were, that I would have to go through so many things, that I would have learned so much and that I would be a totally diffrent person 27 years from that day, I dont think I would have believed them.

As I laid there having my son I remember it so well even to this day, something that was to be the best experiance in my life was and was a turning point for me one I will never forget, a turning point to be the person I am today, although it would take many years and many, many trials and a lot of love.

I remember him finally being born, he didnt cry at all just gruntted and they were all (the dr's, nurses, and specialist) were all running around trying to figur out what was wrong with this baby, I was 22 years old and scared to death that they thought something was wrong with my baby. Why did they think something was wrong? Why couldnt everything be okay? Why did it have to be a difficult delivery? I cant even walk to see what is happening with my baby.

I would never had thought I would get to see so many dr and less and less believe any of them, I would never have thought that he would have been the happiest little boy who would take responsability for everyones mistakes just so they would get in trouble, something he did all the time for his sisters.

I would never have thought that today on his 27th birthday I would see how our thoughts, feelings, diet, lifestyle and love can really work wonders on your healthy and it really has for Matt as well as for myself.

I would never have thought that I would realize what an unhealthy relationship or home life was, I would never have thought that I would be someone who is as interested in helping Matt out as I am and works at it daily with me, a partner, a freind and his step dad <3

27 years I have been caring for this man and every day he wakes up is a wonderful day. Through all the learning of the school system, diet, dr's specialist, and saving his life more times then I want to count I am grateful he choose me as his mother to continue this journey with him, to help him, guide him and of course always love him. I would never have thought 27 years later that I would be this strong, confident, loving woman who see's all that I have gone through with this amazing young man a lot of life lessons, a lot of experaince and a lot of love from both actually from all of us. OUR FAMILY

Matt has always been a fun loving, kind, caring, friendly, happy person and then came the seizures and we experienced a whole new Matt, time laps, loss of memory, anger, sad, loss of consciousness, frustrated, hallucinating, scared and even violent, he seemed to no longer can and the more meds he was on the more angry, violent or depressed he became.

I still have to help him cross the street because he forgets to look for cars, (just the other day he was almost hit by one) I still have to remind him he needs to take smaller bites when he eats (he has chocked on his food many times) I still have to clean up after him when he is unwell, remind him to use soap to clean him self and get his tooth brush ready to brush his teeth, I cook for him and make sure he doesnt over eat (which he still does).

I really never know what every new morning will bring, I have no idea what Matt is waking up, I have no idea what my duties will be, I have no idea from one moment to the next, but I do know that I am here and I can handle all of it as I have already gone through it.

I would never have thought 27 years ago that this would be my life but I am grateful for every day I have with him.

Through the happy times, the difficult times, the crazy times and the unexplainable times I am grateful I am his mom, being his mom, knowing how to talk to him, knowing how to help him, knowing and learning how to care for him and always loving him this is my son Matt and he is amazing Happy Birthday Matt <3